Time for a self pity party!

Usually the 4th of July brings bar-b-ques and picnics and family gatherings. But for me; its just me. A call from the lover this morning and this evening. A short visit from dad. My back is still hurting and I can't sleep at night. The lover has family stuff this coming weekend and I have.. well lets see...I have me. Not part of anything. I'm feeling lonely, lost and unappreciated. I'm last too know or not even though of since I separated from the ex; I'm not given reference of to the lover's family(as far as I know). So yea; I'm feeling like leftovers that need to be gotten rid of. Remember this is my self pity party! No one else is invited. Tomorrow work starts an hour early and I hope to survive another day with this back!