I've had a melt down!

By the end of the workday on Wednesday I was a jumble of nerves and tears. Why? Who cares you ask? ME! I haven't had anything like this since a week after my mother died. The tears just wouldn't stop! Try driving home the twenty miles with the waterworks falling from the sky and your eyes. Then when I got home my dad's car was in the driveway. All I wanted was to be alone. And in so many words I told him just that! Leave, please! The last week or so I've been having horrible leg cramps; day and night. At work and in bed! The kind of Charlie horses that leave you limping and black and blue! So I buy expensive support hose to wear in my stand up all day job. Helps a little, still got the leg cramps but not as bad. In my pill packing prison job we have a vast amount of Pharmacists in the building. So I ask what over the counter drugs to take? I already knew Potassium, but not Evening Primrose oil. So off to Walmart before going home, tears and all to find the wonder drugs (Vitamins). While there and looking like shit, wouldn't you know I would run into people that I knew. All asked what was wrong? I said I was having a meltdown and kept on going. If anyone cared they could call me later! The lover called and all I did was cry! I needed a hug and some old fashion cuddling but got neither.
So I took my Potassium and my Evening Primrose Oil and two eight hour tylenol and off to bed.
Tears ran from my eyes all night, had to have a towel under my face to catch the wetness. When I awoke at 6am my eyes were swelled almost shut and my face was twice the size it was the night before. My throat was going shut and I knew I was in trouble. Called off work and sent a picture to my supervisor who texted me back and told me to go to the emergency room. I knew I had to do something; but emergency rooms cost an arm and a leg; which I can't afford right now! I took a Benadryl and looked up the one walk-in Clinic we have in Indiana, PA. Hooray, they open at 8am. No time to shower or was my hair. I shed my jammies; throw on some stuff and out the door I go. I knew I could the drive the twenty miles if I left right a way. But if I called my dad to drive me, I would have to wait until he drove twenty miles out and we'd have to drive back the twenty miles to the clinic. He called me when I was half way there, he thought I was a going work; nope I'm headed to the clinic and told him why. He said he'd meet me there.
I got there and went in. No one in the waiting room; good for me. They took me right in. The doc looked at me and right off said I was having an allergeric reaction to something. We discuss what I took and concluded the Primrose was the trouble maker. I got a shot right away that increased my heart rate that caused some shaking and good old prednisone to take. All for only $55. Wonder what the emergency room would have charged? I was told to take Friday and the weekend off (work excuse included) and just take it easy. And this is what I plan to do. The swelling has all gone down and I'm not melting anymore. These unpaid days will hurt my bank account and I'll have to do without but its not the first time for that! I now have to get my mind set on Dad's upcoming surgery on Wednesday! I have to be the caregiver again while holding down a fulltime job. My meltdown came early so I could be strong for what comes next.